i've been squeezing my brain for ideas since i got home last night at ten o'clock...i've never been so challenged as a writer...only because i was never asked to have 10 ideas for a script with a matching deadline. fine, so a week is supposed to be enough time...it didn't seem that way to me though. that's why, after sleeping at 2 am this morning, i was up at 7...so far i'm 2 ideas richer than i am now...not bad, at least i have 3 more to go.

this professor is just pure torture, i think she believes that students aren't supposed to sleep...or if not, maybe she thinks that her subject is the only one in our course this term. cause otherwise, she must simply be psycho! argh. i need 3 more ideas.

well at least i'm begining to get off my ass and i'm actually starting to do some work. before you know i'll be busy and loving it. which is my goal anyway...i want to be able to organize things in away that i will be able to go play badminton and not submit half baked work...i can do that.

i really don't know what i'm doing with John Mayer booming althroughout my room....somehow his voice reminds me of my days in the pad with the rest. i've always missed those days. they were happier.

oh, and i've seen her a number of times in the country club where i play badminton, she's a member there as well. she struggles to be civil and nod and smile at me when we cross paths [she even said hi the first time we saw each other]. i've ignored her, and i know it's mean and childish, but i just can't seem to get myself to smile at her anymore. i hope she realizes though that she caused me a lot of pain.

but no matter what, i still can't deny the fact that she was a big part of me once, and that somehow i feel the void that she used to fill.

off to squeeze brain contents once more...wish me luck neverland =c)
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